It's like filling a hole up with dirt.

Imagine you have a huge hole and when I say huge I mean a sink hole like the one in Peru and there is you with a shovel trying to fill it. Will it ever happen?? Are you wasting your time?? Do you give up?? That is the battle that I am going through on a daily basis. I am filling this HUGE sink hole with a simple shovel. And I question myself everyday is it working?? And most importantly is it worth it?? And my answer to you is YES IT IS its worth ever drop of sweat and every minute of effort I have put into it. I know that "one day" I will fill the sink hole and then it will be covered forever, but I will always patrol it to make sure it never gets that large again!

The more I go to the gym the more people know me. They may not know my name or my story but they know I am there to make me new again! People wave at me, people who sadly I don't know or have never noticed. I am so grateful for these people they really keep my spirits up during this whole process. I was on the elliptical on Thursday morning and a woman came up to me to tell me she admired me for what I am doing. It's little things like that, that make my day. Just to know that these people see my effort and take time out of their day to acknowledge it makes me feel really special. But we can't get by on special alone right? I get myself in a funk where I go to the gym but I dont give it my all, it happens to us all right?? Sometimes I get on the elliptical and I know what I am capable of but I get lazy and then later I regret it :( Well today I pushed myself to get motivated and give it my all. I need to keep myself in check! I think I will make it my own personal competition to progressively beat my last calorie burn.. Did I mention how much I love body flow class, I didn't know what to do with myself yesterday afternoon without body flow and zumba I love Wednesdays even though I am pretty convinced that I look like a complete fool in those classes I DON'T CARE! LOL I am progressively getting better form in both classes and that make me happy :) This is what I imagine I look like minus the hat and tie of course.

Random Story.

 So I was in the shower the other day and I felt a lump on my front side area and if wasn't moving around and it was pretty big. So the whole time I was in the shower I was thinking geez I am doing all this hard work just to find a lump that is a pretty scary thing! So I got out of the shower and screamed for my husband to come check it out. And the whole time he was feeling around I said I am making an appointment to see a Dr A.S.A.P. and that I was scared. Well he just started laughing and I was thinking well thats pretty rude to laugh at a scared person!! He looked at me and said "the lump in question is you hip bone!" OMG was I embarrassed I honestly forgot I had one of those in there. I haven't felt it in years. Needless to say I won't be going to the Dr's for a check up.